Winter is
hard, SAD
kicks in and changes my whole dynamic and plans. There are moments I feel like
disappearing, instants when I don’t see the point in dragging the human
existence but then I remember about the people who love me and I feel guilty
for ever thinking that way (which surely doesn’t help either). SAD makes you go
on a roller-coaster of emotions through the day. As a therapist one imagines: ‘that
shouldn’t happen to you, you should have it under control’, I hear this jugging
voice in my head. When it hits rock bottom I spend my free time watching
inspiring talks one after another Abraham-Hicks is by far
my favourite as it touches the wounds and makes them heal with a little smile.
The Soul is
tormented I hear people saying. The soul is not tormented, the personality (ego/self-identification)
is tormented. If you can sense the soul all the torment will gradually disappear.
Once you connect with the infinite beauty, love and perfection that your soul
is, the tormenting will cease. I am not saying that you will feel numb or that
you will be somehow hypnotised and won’t experience any pain but you will acknowledge
the pain in a different way when you don’t attach your sense of self to it and
don’t allow it to define you.
There is a
difference in experiencing the pain as something that it is happening and being
the pain and feeling unworthy, unloved or desperate because you identify with
it so much that can’t understand that the pain isn't you, you aren’t
the pain, you aren’t your physical, mental and emotional states, you only
experience these. You are the soul.
How do you
do it, how do you come up after hitting rock bottom?
Do things
that will help you get up the scale of feelings. If you are feeling sad
look around you and find at least one thing in your life that you are grateful
for. If this is already a lot of work stay there and maybe think about other
things that you are grateful for, then gradually come up the scale to feeling
optimistic…and up to feeling joyful, free,
empowered.
Meditate,
practice yoga, surround yourself with things that inspire you (plants, books, people).
Go outside, walk in nature, swim in the ocean, call your friends, gather your
crew for a cup of tea, try something different, cuddle your pet, tell a loved
one how much they mean to you.
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